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[05 Jun 2007|11:50pm]
You are a Lavender Rose

You represent love at first sight and enchantment.

Your vibe: intense and intriguing

Falling in love with you is: deep and meaningful
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cant sleep [08 Mar 2007|02:29am]
[ mood | blah ]

1.What Time is it now? 2:30 am

2.Single or taken? single/complicated.... long story

3.What does your name mean? pearl

4.Who picked out your name? mom and dad

5.Whats your nickname? megs

6.What colour are your eyes? green

7.Do you have an innie or an outie? innie

8.What size are your shoes? 7

9.How tall (or short) are you? 5'4"

10.Honestly, what do you like about yourself? my eyes, hair, and boobs, yes boobs, haha

11.What do you always get complimented on? my face/eyes, my curves, my ass, and my boobs

12.worst quality? worrying and procrastinating

13.What are the last four digits of your phone Number? 1056

14.Do you think you're cute? im alright i suppose...

15.Hair colour? brown

16.Do you wear contacts? sometimes

17.Living Arrangements? apartment with 2 roomies.... Leigh and Carley, they are pretty cool chicks :o)

18.Favourite drink? strawberry orange banana crystal light

19.Favourite alcoholic drink? anything with vodka in it or straight malibu rum

20.Favourite Month? october..the fall and april..the spring

21.Favourite Food? pineapple

22.Favourite Board Game? umm... i dunno but i LOVE twister

23.Web Site? facebook i suppose

24.Favourite Clothing Brand? american eagle and express

25.Favourite day of the Year? my birthday or any holiday

26.Fav color? pink and blue

27.Favourite Animal? penguin

8.Do you have more gfemale or male friends? male friends

29.Who's your best friend? haley and ansley

30.Are your parents together? yep

31.How often do you get together with the family? not too many these days... im 2 hours away and our schedules always conflict

32.Do you see your parents or your friends more? friends

33. Anything special about your parents? what do you mean by special... my daddy is my hero

34.Siblings and their ages? emily 15.. almost 16.. bout to be on the road

35. do u think ur a flirt? ive been told i am and i love to flirt, so i guess that is a yes

36.are you slutty? lol, i dont think so

37.you Mean? sometimes

38.You like someone? yes i do ;)

39.You can keep secrets? yeah

40.You dance in front of the mirror? when im getting ready to go to a party

41.You sing in the shower? yep

42.You liked Britney Spears? no

43.You've liked a cousin? no

44.you've been in the opposites bathrooms? yes

45.ever hurt anyone? Physically or emotionally? emotionally

46.You've been hurt? oh yeah..a lot

47.You swear? yep

48.You get your way? i try to... which means most of the time yes, lol

49.You're willing to try new things? most of the time

50.You've cheated on a test? yes i actually have.. i know, im awful

51.What are you wearing? blue ae sleep shorts and a white tank top

52.What colour are your pants? blue

53.What are you listening to? Tell Me Baby - Red Hot Chili Peppers

54.How are you feeling? sleepy

55.what are you doing now? taking this survey

56.What are you eating? nothing

57.How's the weather? its cool outside right now

58.What books are you reading? genetics, anatomy, and world lit stuff

59.How many lip glosses do you have? like 1 billion

60.What perfume do you use? gap scent dream, bath and body works brown dugar & fig and cherry, estee lauder pleasures, perry eliss, and a lot more...

61.What's in your purse? wallet, sunglasses, keys, phone, palm pilot, no doz, ipod, and other "things"

62. tall or short boy? taller

63.blonde or brunette guys? brunette

64.Boxers showing? umm not really

65. Long hair or short hair on boys? short

66.What's the first thing you notice about guys? smile, eyes, and butt..lol

67.What kind of cologne do you use?

68. Whats in your pockets?

69.Boxers or briefs?

70.Blonde or brunette girls?

71.Tall or short girls?

72.Piercings on girls?

73.Long or short hair on girls?

74.Good or bad girl?

75.What do you find annoying in girls?

76.What's the first thing you notice about girls?

77. the last movie you saw? The Notebook

78. what did you have for dinner? chicken noodle soup

79.What are you hoping for? to settle the "complicated" situation soon

80.What movie do you really want to see? i dunno

81.Where is your favourite place to travel? beach

82.What did you last dream about? i was in greys anatomy.... ansley and i are addicted and are currently re watching the 2nd season...

83.What was the last thing you ate? chicken noodle soup

84.If you were a crayon what colour what would you be? pink

85.Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? michael

86.Do you like the person that sent this to you? no one sent it to me

87.Ever had a crush on a teacher? nope

88.Are you too shy to ask someone out? nope

89.Scary movies or happy ending? both

90.Summer or winter? both, but more towards winter

91.Relationships or one night stands? relationships

92.Chocolate or Vanilla ice cream? vanilla

93.Do you want your friends to write back (ignore if you're using LiveJournal)? --

94.Who is most likely to respond (ignore if you're using LiveJournal)? --

95.Who is least likely to respond (ignore if you're using LiveJournal)? --

96.What did you do last night? studied for genetics, watched the notebook with Mark, and hung out with Ansley

97.Anything else you want to add? i have a ton of shit to do tomorrow!!!!! .... like volunteer work, class, writing a paper, genetics homework, thirsty thursday, laundry, and the list goes on

98.Time finishing? 2:41 am

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been quite a while.... [08 Mar 2007|01:40am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

so its officially been forever since i have written in my livejournal and i think it might miss me just a little, so im going to start again....

so its been almost 4.5 whole months without nick in my life and without a boyfriend period..and all i can say is wow! i have had so much fun and have discovered so many things about myself in the past months..way more than i have discovered while being in college for almost 3 years. needless to say life is going very well and i can honestly say i have no complaints at the moment. i have met some new awesome friends..most specifically ansley who reminds me more and more of my bestest friend haley from home. i have to say she is the FIRST girl i have met in college that i have had no drama with and have had just no problems with in general. she will actually tell me what she thinks about anything and everything instead of going behind my back and talking about me.. so refreshing to have someone like that in my life. she is a great friend and im glad we met! plus it just rocks that we always have an amazing time together no matte what we end up doing.

so school is awesome too. i graduate next may with a BS in Psychology, a minor in general sciences and human development and family studies, and with all my pre-nursing finished and i will have all pre-med work completed too...that is if i ever become crazy enough to pursue medical school..haha. yay for 4 years of hard work... right.. only to go off to nursing school, lol! im excited though that im actually finishing the psyc degree.. it leaves options open for after nursing school. some people say i should just go ahead and go to grad school, but if i dont get my nursing degree i will definately regret that very much.

so um.. thats basically whats going on in my life.. school, amazing friends, and discovering me more and more everyday. i am having the time of life here. more later, hopefully... :o)

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[08 Nov 2006|06:13pm]
nick and i broke up last tuesday..yes being halloween..so now valentines day and halloween are all associated with bad things, haha...and today nick is in a relationship.. not just dating.. a relationship with avery.... *sigh* whatever...i dont care..well maybe a little, but if i keep telling myself i dont then eventually i wont. so yeah..other than that im doing well.
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[29 Oct 2006|07:54pm]
its time for a change....im tired, worn out, and just frustrated....

i feel like the worst person in the world right now, and well, damn i probably deserve it. if only i could figure out what the right things are to do every time then maybe, maybe things wouldnt seem so shitty sometimes.

oh well
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[03 Aug 2006|10:18pm]
I mad an A in my 4 hour statistic class that I took in the 5 week mini semester!!
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rambling [15 May 2006|01:19am]
im really sad, mad, angry, upset, etc... all at once right now. i dont know what to do. the only thing i wanna do is scream and yell and make her fucking realize what she is doing to herself and her family. i dunno what the hell to do right at the moment. im at a lose... there is nothing anyone can do. im going to write her a letter and mail it when i get back to auburn, but i know that wont make a difference. she will just cry and think i dont love her and then be back to her same ways in like 3 days. im just so angry at her and that isnt the way it should be...but this has been going on for 7 years now... and nothing has helped in the past so nothing is going to help now. its a lost cause..but i refuse to give up on it. there must be something we can do to help her..to get her to realize.. but in reality there is nothing. i just cried for the first time in weeks..and its sad that it was over this. i cant take this anymore. everytime i see her i just wanna throw up..i wanna just yell at her for being the way she is. does she not realize it or something..? agh.. im just working myself up again for something i cant control..and yet she wonders why i have issues with self image and eating.. look at what is in front of me.....

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[18 Apr 2006|10:16am]
i am beyond frustrated at this point in time.

i am going to finish my paper and then go to class.

then tonight i am going to indulge in my bottle of malibu rum with some pineapple juice.

i hate drama and i hate shitty things in life..especially how they all come about at once.


edit: how am i supposed to not be somewhat angry.. i mean this is just out of the blue sprung on me with the other 800 million things to do. yeah so its back to ole apartment...this should be fun fun *rolls eyes*
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[11 Apr 2006|04:32pm]
[ mood | bored ]

so i have a new schedule for fall and its not too bad :) and if i wanted to i can graduate at the end of next summer with a degree in psychology, now isnt that exciting, haha, i dont think im ready to be on my own that soon!

so im taking marching band, latin 1, theories of personality, world lit 2 (ick), and research methods in psychology. so yay!

im off to do goodness knows what. today has been a relatively good day also.


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randomness [10 Apr 2006|10:15pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

-my face looks thinner, so maybe my boobs will start dissapearing soon...lol
-i am very much in love with nick smith right now and nothing can change that. he makes me oh so very happy and makes me smile no matter what is going on. plus he gives the best hugs :)
-i hate anatomy more than anything
-i am no longer a nursing major; end of story, i can not handle it and i dont like it one bit
-i am going into counseling psychology/social work; there is a possibility i can graduate at the end of next summer if i worked hard....
-i stuck to my diet 100% today. didnt make it to the gym b/c of random stuff going on, but i also ate like 300 less calories then i gave myself :)
-my mission this weekend is to find the perfect formal dress
-people who continue to act like everything between me and them is ok makes me laugh
-on wednesday i get to do cardio and yoga/pilates with Amanda, yay!
-thursdays symphonic band tour is going to suck, but i am going to make sure the night rocks..im on a quest to find a person to buy me a bottle of malibu, hehe
-im almost a sister of Sigma Alpha Iota
-this semester better end soon so i can start fun classes this summer and relax some with wonderful people
-i love green beans and wheat bread w/ spray butter
-i am finally going to get to go to Six Flags on Sat the 22nd if all goes as planned!!

yeah, so eventually nick, me, amanda, and bean are going to watch a movie together tonight before bean has to go home again..wish this phi mu alpha stuff would end, its almost 11:00...and i am geting tired.


...she sits like shes got something stuck up her ass and when she plays she sticks out real bad..someone tune that girl...

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[09 Apr 2006|06:17pm]
[ mood | irritated ]

so, trying to talk bad about me to my boyfriend while i am out of town is beyond my comprehension. i can see anyone naturally talking bad about a person..but to their significant other..you would think you would know he would stick up for me and not let you talk shit, especially to him. you keep surprising me everyday with how much you can really do. some friend you are. ill never look at you the same and things will never be right with our friendship again.... and its funny that you try so hard and it never quite works.

on another note, happy 1 year to nick and me!! we are going to dinner now :)

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just a tiny update [07 Apr 2006|11:33am]
[ mood | thankful ]


i have learned some people are not at all who you think they are. girls are bitches and heartless and the ones that are the the terrible ones always happen to be the ones you let right into your life and thought you could share so much with.

i dont think anyone will ever replace my Haley. no one down here evern begins to compare to her, or the friendship we had.

boyfriends will come and go, but when you have something really great, dont fuck anything up; just live in the moment and enjoy it.

i will never not be in marching band.

amanda loveland makes me smile all the time.

haley has the perfect gold formal dress that i might just have to have if i cant find that "hot black one".

i joined a fitness center for women. i am starting "body pump" in a week. it will be kick ass.

im painting my bedroom for next year pink and black and then i am doing my bathroom in black/white classic feel.

my goal is to be 125 pounds by band camp....

i have to miss the PMA pledge party this weekend. my first miss of pledge parties since before i even attended Auburn.

a year ago today was the beginning of my first "real" weekend with Nick in Auburn :)

i cried a lot yesterday. because i am stupid sometimes and then a certain girl is just a bitch to me in every way but i havent done anything...

i have symphonic band now..haha.


oh and people who get trashed every night of the week make me ill, very ill, because it is stupid in the first place and then they usually forget about things that were supposed to be done...

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procrastinating [16 Mar 2006|10:01pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

1. What time did you get up this morning? 9:30
2. Diamonds or pearls? pearls
3. What was the last film you saw? Mean Girls
4. What is your favorite TV show? Grey's Anatomy
5. What did you have for breakfast this morning? nothing
6. What's your favorite cuisine? mexican
7. What foods do you dislike? mushrooms and pcickles..oh and peppers
8. What is your favorite chip flavor? sour cream and onion
9. What is your favorite CD at the moment? dont have one..my ipod
10. What kind of vehicle do you drive? Mazda 626
11. Favorite sandwich? turkey w/ cheese on wheat
12. What characteristics do you despise? jealousy
13. Favorite item of clothing? t-shirts w/ a skirt
14. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? an exotic island
15. What color is your bathroom? white and gray
16. Favorite brand of clothing? old navy and american eagle
17. Favorite time of the day? night
18. What was your most memorable birthday? my 15th..dont ask why, it just was
19. Where were you born? Birmingham, AL
20. Favorite sport to watch? football
21. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? ....
22. Person you expect to send it back first? i didn't mail it
23. What fabric detergent do you use? all
24. Were you named after anyone? yeah..my grandmothers
25. Do you wish on stars? sometimes when im in a crazy mood
26. When did you last cry? today..all this major stuff is just stressing me out
27. Do you like your handwriting? yeah
28. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? id like to think so
29. Are you a daredevil? sometimes..especially if nick is involved
30. Do looks matter? i want to say no, but we all know they matter to a certain extent
31. How do you release anger? yell, cry, etc...
32. What were your favorite toys as a child? my little ponies, barbie, and rainbow brite
33. What class in High School was totally useless? being a student aid for like 3 semesters
34. Do you use sarcasm a lot? sometimes
35. Favorite movies? way too many to list
36. What are your nicknames? megs
37. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? not usually..only when they are brand new, lol
38. Do you think that you are strong? mentally-sometimes; physically-not really
39. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? chocolate
40. What are your favorite colors? pink and blue
41. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? struggling with my weight
42. Who do you miss the most? when college wasnt so hard and girls werent bitches; when gossip wasnt what we always talked about and when boys had cooties; when i knew exactly what i wanted to do and how many kids i wanted to have; when dad was there holding my hand every step of the way...and i could go on forever
43. Do you want everyone you sent this to send it back? whatever
44. What color pants are you wearing? black
45. What are you listening to right now? Lifehouse-You Are All I Want
46. What did you last eat? 100 cal pack of cookies
47. If you were a crayon what color would you be? pink
48. Last person you talked to on the phone? nick
49. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes and butt
50. Favorite Drink? mt dew
51. Do you wear contacts? i should since i wear my glasses all the time
52. Favorite Day(s) of the Year? my birthday, christmas, easter, spring break, and April 9th
53. Scary Movies or Happy Endings? both
54. Summer or winter? winter
55. Hugs or Kisses? kisses and hugs, but only nick kisses
56. What Is Your Favorite Dessert? chocolate cake
57. What Book(s) Are You Reading? gossip girls and some crazy book..the lusiads..for lit
58. What's On Your Mouse Pad? dont have one
59. What Did You Watch Last night on TV? Grey's Anatomy
60. Favorite Smells? fresh laundry, my bath gel, nick's cologne
61. Rolling Stones or Beatles? Beatles
62. What's the furthest you've been from home? Cayman Islands
63. Wasn't this fun? it wasted 10 min of studying for govt, so yeah

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i am happy, need i say more... [14 Mar 2006|11:41am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

i love my spontaneous boyfriend. as much as i hate to be spontaneous i always have the best time when we do random things. they make me happy.

so on st patricks day it will be 1 year since i had my first cup of hunch punch. good memories..haha! and i intend to celebrate this 1 year craziness in style with a cup, well maybe 3 or 4 cups, of green hunch punch..and i of course will make amanda loveland laugh all night because i am acting all crazy.

yeah, i need to read english lit stuff in a few minutes. oh and we are playing with the piano instructor today in symphonic band. let me tell you how excited i am about that one... at least these long gaps will now be filled with piano.

oh and my schedule for the summer is:
1st Summer Session-

Domsky, Darren

Lewis, Philip M.

3rd Summer Session-

Correia, Chris

Weathers, Frank Wendell

And the Fall: (symphonic band might change, who knows)


Craig-schmidt, Margaret C.


HUM ANATOMY/PHYSIOLOGY II TR 08:00-09:15AM, W 06:00-08:50PM
Best, Troy L.

Vinson, Johnnie B.


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[10 Mar 2006|10:07pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

so i dont have my book bag meaning i cant do any work to get ahead. that was my goal to do the work tonight so i could spend time with my wonderful boy tomorrow and sunday. so that sucks. and i dunno when i will be recieving my bag back. im going to bed, well to lay on the couch and watch a movie.

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[10 Mar 2006|12:20pm]
[ mood | sore ]

so last night was pretty shitty.. the only thing that was my sacing grace was amanda picking me up from tylers at the worst point in the night and then peyton watchin Grey's Anatomy with me until 4 in the morning. At least the end of my night turned out awesome. and my boyfriend is coming back tomorrow!! yay, so excited to see him again :)

so im going home tonight b/c i wont be able to any other time soon and frankly im just a little home sick and i wanna see the puppies. i will be back tomorrow by 3 though so all is ok.

some things aggrevate me especially include doing things you said you werent going to do and showing off by lying a whole bunch. i cant stand that. stop trying to freaking impress people..argh.

i have an awful headache. prolly something to do with that margarita peyton fixed me that was pretty much all alcohol. luckily i only had like 1/8 of it, lol! its all good though.

so im waiting on kristy to get me so i can get my car. the sooner the better cause i need to pick and drop my band uniform off and get gas and head to trussville to see my baby sister and besides id like to get there before rush hour at 5. well im gonna go!

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[07 Mar 2006|08:43am]
[ mood | groggy ]

i feel overwhelmed just looking at my anatomy notes. how am i going to know all this by thursday at 11?? i will manage somehow, i always do.. and once again i am not going to do as well this semester as i thought. i mean i will do better than last semester by all means, but this freaking history class is going to be the death of me....why; youd think it would be anatomy.

eh, so im waiting on dad to send me his thoughts on my paper. so im off to terrel to study for anatomy and wait for that paper!

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it feels like summer in auburn [06 Mar 2006|06:42pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

ok, so is it sad to say that i would rather be busting my ass studying anatomy then finishing my world lit paper...eh, no. i hate world lit, but i will have the final draft for my dad by 7 am so he can revise it for me to turn it at 2 tomorrow. that means i will more than likely be up till like 3 am tonight, and then i will have to have very long tuesday and wednesday nights also to make another A on my anatomy test. it will be well worth it though, because 311 in Auburn Thursday night with Kristy, Meg (?), Lacey, Nick, and others...! yes it will be quite a wonderful end to such a shitty week :)

so we are supposed to go eat at Mellow Mushroom tonight, however, nick is passed out on the couch snoring like a beast. i am getting very hungry though and i need a long break. i have been working since 5.

history test sucked. i hate the teacher and his tests...

as of now, in the fall i am sending nursing applications for Fall 2007 entrance to Auburn, UAB, Emory, Samford, and Kentucky. i will finish all pre req this fall and i will go ahead and make my minor in psych a major so at least i will have a degree at the end of next summer in case i never get into nursing school.. so yay for that! lots of choices and options. hate to leave Auburn though, but if i get a degree in psych here and get accepted to Emory or UK, i think i will definietly have to leave..

so enough procrastinating, im waking him up so we can eat!

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[05 Mar 2006|08:16pm]
i am currently avoiding studying history....

9-12: study history
12: symphonic band
1: history test
2-5: finsih english paper
5-whenever: workout and start studying anatomy

so i am kind of annoyed with some people and then kind of pissed with others... it is never ending.

and i love nick
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[22 Feb 2006|10:06pm]
"Missing You"

Everytime I think of you
I always catch my breath
I'm still standing here
And your miles away
And I wonder why you left me
And there's a storm that's raging through my frozen heart tonight

I hear your name in certain circles
And it always makes me smile
I spent my time just thinkin about you
And its almost driving me wild

But its my heart thats beggin down this long distance line tonight

And I ain't missin' you at all
Since you've been gone... Away
I ain't missin' you
No matter what I might say

There's a message in the wires
And I am sendin' you a signal tonight
You don't know how desperate I've become
And It looks like I'm loosein' this fight

But it's my heart that's breakin' down this long dusty road of mine

But I ain't missin' you at all
Since you've been gone... Away
I aint missin' you at
No matter what my friends say

And there's a message that I'm sendin' out
Like a telograph to you or something
I can't bridge this distance
Honey, stop this heart ache all alone

I ain't missin' you at all
Since you've been gone... Away
I ain't missin' you
No matter what my friends say
I ain't missin' you
Since you've been gone... Away
I ain't missin you
Yeah, no matter what your friends say

Hey yeah, yeah yeah yeah

I ain't missin you at all
Since you've been gone... Away
I ain't missin' you
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